"Every time I tried to concentrate, my mind glided off, like a skater, into a large empty space, and pirouetted there, absently." (Chapter 12)

"I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be shadow, the million moving shapes and cul-de-sacs of shadow. There was shadow in bureau drawers and closets and suitcases, and shadow under houses and trees and stones, and shadow at the back of people's eyes and smiles, and shadow, miles and miles and miles of it, on the night side of the earth." (Chapter 12)

I think that this two quotes basically summarized Esther's inner feeling. They are her thoughts or feelings when she is in depression.During chapter 9-13, Esther is in really deep depression. She never wants to do anything, she thinks that there's no point of doing them. For weeks, she didn't sleep, wash her hair or wash her clothes. She think that everyone else is "silly" because she thinks that there's no purpose of life; everyone dies at the end anyways. Esther start to try to kill herself, and she almost did. Her mom later on sent her to recieve lots of treatments. One of them is the shock treatment, which she especially hate. The thoughts and feeling in the book were so well written because the author went through all this in her life. It made the story more touching, sad and weird at the same time.